I'm living in a material world

For the past 2 months, i lost my sense of purpose of coming over to UK. Thanks goodness, it came back. I was engulfed by the idea of earning big bucks here and going back home to set up small business. All day, money fill up my thoughts. I slogged through the weeks with no day off. i saved on food and entertainment. Absolutely no life.

I guess i'm getting weary and start thinking why am i doing this? perhaps i was lonely here and by working, it helps to fill up time faster.
Right now, i'm only working 35hrs a week with London Metropolitan University as a Finance Officer and 12hrs in the Japanese restaurant with a day off in the weekend. You might be thinking i'm still working so hard but with the high cost of living and the fact that i need to save for travelling, it's not too bad at all. Also, i can resist the temptation of buying clothes and going for movies once in a blue moon.

I can't deny the fact that money still poses an important factor in our life beside our ideals and dreams. Important thing is that we have to strive a balance between earning money and enjoying ourselves. I used to fantasize a world without money and barter trade when i was young. The picture that i drew in my head is always peaceful and full of harmony world. In my thoughts, i will try to figure out why there is a need for money. As years went by, i no longer try to find the answer.
When you are a child, you are always so navie.